Today, my boss and i screamed at our computers at the same time.

hahahahahaha

Loyalty to your friends

Means that it doesnt matter whether your teammate is in the wrong or not, you should stand by him against the world.
But in the dressing room, you can tell him off if u want to.
If u have a problem and u are upset about a situation, try to sort it out within yourselves, dont ever take the problem outside the group.

-Geri

I fully concur (:

my twitters today

*chirp chirp*

hahaha. the best part i like about events is surprisingly, the logistics/deco part. I like to run around to get stuffs and lugging all the heavy bags back, then putting them together. It makes me warm & fuzzy inside when I see everything falling into place.

I’ve got random happy moments while travelling around today. Here are the twitters of today!

- I mistook the epicentre for CPF building at shenton way today. Tried to push the entrance door but it refuses to budge. A few office guys standing near the door look highly amused. A middle-aged guy asked me where I’m going & I said CPF bldg in which he broke into this big silly smile & told me ‘You’ve got a long walk. CPF bldg is right at the other end.’ *my eyes dilated on the spot & hurried away looking highly embarrassed while the guys continued to look amused by me*

-I bought a bag of rainbow today. Even the cashier smiled when he saw the crepe paper.

- I should bring a calculator along with me next time I go shopping. HAHA, more aunty but helps me stay focused man.

- I am going to focus on becoming an ENERGIZER BUNNY this week. Need lots of hyper energy. I will stay positive! (:

I must be there for my boss

this week would be the busiest period in my internship & as jaryl says, ‘i must bite harder and push through‘.

I’ve been there for ftb -now my priority,meaning my heart, brain & soul will stay with ccwa until the event is successfully over. I must support her through this most stressful period.

I know I had to be strong,  and while everyone around me was falling apart, I will work at keeping my mind clear.

loud, laughing silly o’times

Was browsing through old albums and these cute photos brought a smile to my face.

Will be going on a kl trip with geri & lovelies =)

*excited & hope it turn out fun too!*

A girl on the cusp of becoming someone

“If you hold court, you will have to learn honesty as well as tact. Practise your diplomacy on other people and give me your honesty.”

-My Story, Princess of Egypt

How I love this quote and the Pharaoh in the book who said it. One day, I hope someone would say this to me & I know there and then, this is it -my perfect soulmate. Maybe I’m too much of a perfectionist but I used to say this “never settle for 2nd best”. *smile to myself*

This week will be another extremely hectic week for me. Another ‘clench your jaws, bite your lips, pull through it” period. Patience is obviously at the shorter end and tempers might be flaring now & then. All I seek for is an inner peace for now -something I won’t allow anyone to disturb.

She is getting harsher and I would expect this coming. Let me hope that I can deliver what she expects of me. Although I think people should really have high expectations of themselves & low expectations of others so that they keep themselves in check.

Never mind, all these aren’t important to me anymore. What I will do now is to stay focused on the words below:

I want to think seriously about what I can accomplish with what’s left of my life.

Lost and Found.

“When you love someone you let them take care of you.”
— Jodi Picoult

I relish and savour every moment I had when I spent my late afternoon today reading a storybook -Lost & Found. It was a simple luxury and longing I couldn’t fulfilled until today. Albeit the spasms of cramps I had, it was a much needed escapade from the reality. The book is really interesting -it’s about different perspectives from participants in a reality tv show (something like The Amazing Race). When a couple is the last to arrive at a destination, the host will ask them this question “You have lost the game, but what have you found?”

It was a question I questioned myself for this summer. I have lost time, lost intimacy I used to share with some friends, lost the moments to mentor my brother to excel for his important examination this year, lost my freedom to do whatever I like, lost my sleep, lost my time with my family. What have I found?

Strength? Endurance? A changed Sin Yi? I have no answer for this at the moment, but this summer is really… strongly bittersweet. The bitterness I have felt, bottled up with the occasional sweetness I gathered was certainly something I have never experienced in my life before. I just hope that the rest of it would be well spent and ultimately, I lived it without regrets.

I believe (or rather, choose to believe) I am an independant soul ;)

But there are certainly times when I have to rely on someone else. One such time was when there is this dead lizard smashed at my room’s door hinge and I just can’t garner up the courage to remove it. In the end, after teh-ing to my mum, she helped me to remove its gruesome corpse. The quote “when you love someone you let them take care of you” reminded me of this incident and I was honestly secretly grateful that I have a mummy who love me so much (& I love her too) that she will do anything for me. By that, I really mean anything. I think a mother’s love is the most noble love in this world. But then, I also realized I haven’t let any of my friends took care of me for a long while. Interesting discovery (:

‘ your minds in disturbia/ it’s like the darkness is the light

Body language

“People touch or lean against something that they feel is theirs.”

So, does that mean people who are touchy just claim ownership of the rest.. or they might just be trying to be friendly loh.

Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it

It’s amuses me that my dad has to threaten me by saying that ‘you would have eye bags like me if you sleep so little hours continuously these days’.

Except for certain occasions, I never took good care of my skin/image. Beauty is only skin deep yet humans would definitely strive for perfection. I’m probably an extreme believer of ‘beauty only promises and might not deliver’.

Yesterday, my mum was lecturing me on etiquette of a WOMAN & I told her not to impose these sexually biased expectations on me. It was so pissing off to require more from a WOMAN purely because of my sex. I was closed to telling her that if she doesn’t stop nagging, I will go for a sex change operation.

Yet another thing which happened today gives me the displeasure of being a female. I shan’t elaborate further as I’m busy nodding off in front of the screen. I can’t prove my worth if people are so bent on being sexist.

Anyways. I’ve learnt to block out certain information. I’m just enjoying the smell of my new pantene shampoo now (:

*such a random post.

Endless troubles

I was listening to “Endless Love” by Adam Sandler and Mariah Carey and that sparkles off some inspiration for this title. Hahah

Due to my stupid period, I’ve been awfully tired. Fell asleep on the living room’s sofa at 9pm till 4am this morning, went back to my room & continue snoozing till 7am. Today was running around town area with my boss to settle and buy stuffs & on the 1 hour back to office, I slept soundly. I woke up, did my work and slept soundly (again) on the 1 hour back home.

Having menstrual cramps is like having a war within my body -I got paler than usual, my muscles all ache, I’ll be attacked with periodic cramps which sent sharp pain to errr. my womb. hahaha. I’m so tired I can’t be bothered to be involved in any wars happening around me.

I rather spend my time munching on chocolate, watching hot babes like Megan Fox and listening to soothing songs to unwind.

I was watering Jaryl’s red bean plant today. Then, I realized something. With each passing day, I feel that I have to carry more responsibilities along the way. Days aren’t easy as they once have been before. I used to be someone motivated by responsibility, probably because I can’t wait to grow up. Now, I hope I can slow down this process while I grab more time and chances to stay young & carefree.

On the other hand, I get offended when people still treat me like a little kid who is easily contented. My maturity and intellectual capacity are not as small as my size. *frowns

I once read somewhere, “it’s not necessarily to be strong in life, you just have to feel strong”. I need to get that feeling soon. (: