2008 January « IT'S MY LIFE

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I believed an attitude change is really important. I must say I’ve learnt a lot from my comms and promo mgmt class.

In comms class,

Girl: Maybe it’s because people see her as a female, hence not strong leader.

Hot comms prof: This is ridiculous. Don’t make it into a gender issue -bcos it isn’t.

Girl: I’m just saying it’s a possibility. It’s not easy to handle that situation, especially when others are not really supportive of her as compared to having a man to take control in this case.

Prof: If you’re blaming this failure on her gender, then I would say it is never going to work. You can’t go into business with such a paradigm.

I find myself nodding vigorously at his comments in class. He changed my belief. I’m not going to tell anyone about the difference between a man/woman and how I belong to the former anymore. People shouldn’t judge or have preconceived perceptions of what a male/female leadership should be like. If I have to stand up for myself, I would say ‘No, this is not because of my sex. This is just me.’ :) & Prof is hilarious. I was just talking to myself, ‘Is this the same person?’ and he thought I said, ‘Is she lesbian?’ *laughs*

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Although many commented how dreadfully boring my PM Prof is, I feel motivated to listen to him and I think he has nice eyes. :P Today’s consultation with him makes me realized just how knowledgeable he is. He shared with me how knowledge is build upon knowledge, how research must go hand in hand with teaching to bring more up-to-date information and value to the class. & I’m pleasantly surprised that he actually has a funny side to him! I was asking him why does he have 2 laptops with him? He said, “one for each hand!” hahaha.

If only my gpa could skyrocket all the way till I graduate, I might consider being a prof as my retirement plan. I love the dynamics in this environment.

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Tyra banks is really one woman I look up to in so many ways. Through this season of ANTM, I think I get the main message which is, people are going to focus on your weakness. That is the reality. It is up to you to have the confidence to take their focus out of your weakness and be drawn to something more captivating. Classy.

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One last thing which really changes me a lot over this summer is my crisis management skills. Because of FTB, I’m faced with life & death decisions to make, faced with people with dislocated arm, asthmatic attacks and possible h1n1 carriers. I learnt to force myself to remain calm, to think rationally and to encourage people when they’re going through their hard or painful times. This makes me realized if I were to be thrown into another emergency situation again, I will not panick like a gan chiong spider like I used to. I can deal with it already. It’s encouraging to know that although my academic skills might have sucked for the past sem, I acquired life skills.

“I just want you to be yourself. Be a bigger yourself.” -Tyra

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After driving yrstrday, my mood took a downturn bcos of all the F***ING DUMB mistakes I made. I thought it wld be another eeeeemo day. BUT not!

WHY??? -sly smile-

Darling Qi came to visit me in SMU (even if it’s for a mere short half hour) !! -jumps ard happily-

I was freaking high! It’s been loooong since I last seen my darling & she cut the Victoria hairstyle which makes her look damn chio. Hehehe.

& she was complaining about how my blog seems so depressing & that I lose my happy &horny self to work. Well, I must admit that is true. Hahah, well~ Not a lot of ppl is capable of making me high & horny these dys ( qi is obviously an exception) and thus, I get myself to be preoccupied with meeting deadlines & doing well lor. Such is life? But of course, I do realise that I seem to be losing my smile -frowning badly-

SO, I will TRY to blog more happy thoughts ok!

& my LTB leader, Roger (the guy below) with a dead-pan humor ( I LOVE ALOT) cheered me up for my driving failure by coming up with a theory that there is always a quota for the no. of off days everyone has. -smiles- So cute!

HAPPEEEEEE (:

on 31 January, 2008 by sin2dy

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In Musings, emo shit on 29 January, 2008 by sin2dy

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Hey my dears! Here is some of the pics. I just received some from my friend, don’t have the time to update the album yet. Give me some more time! =P

http://smusg.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=389400&l=327be&id=527053612

Anyways, I really enjoyed that night. So many ‘insights’& so much laughter. Beaby rocks with her crab dance (HAHAH), maybe I should come up with a sotong dance~ *winks*

Hahaha, just love you girls to bits! MUACKS.

ps: I discovered smthg interesting. Aunties like to match the colours of their plastic bags. Pls tell me straight in my face when I start matching colours of the plastic bag I’m carrying with my clothes. Confront me for the rationale of doing so & bang my head against the wall if I think it’s cool. O.O

Corns’ late night out!

on 29 January, 2008 by sin2dy

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Do unto others what you want others to do upon you.

Don’t expect me to open up to you & let you know all my secrets when you can’t give honest answers back. This is probably the reason as to why I click with some friends better (even though I know there much shorter than other long-term ones).

I really got sick of finding out from people what’s wrong with them. It is irritating, at least to me, when someone keeps bugging me to reveal certain information which I’m not comfortable sharing with. Therefore, I don’t bug my friends what is their problems. If you think you want to let me know, then go ahead! I’d gladly offer you my listening ear & seriously shut up to hear you out.

If not, DON’T SAY ANYTHING. Why do people around me start acting like my MOM nowadays? Keep mumbling stories or some stuffs she is unsatisfied about & YET, don’t tell me what she wants me to do in the end. No point. IRKS ME TO THE CORE.

I am sorry if I sound harsh or perhaps, a selfish and uncaring bitch. I’ve made it clear that “If you think you want to let me know, then go ahead! I’d gladly offer you my listening ear & seriously shut up to hear you out. ” That’s what friends are for, right?

On the contrary, if you continue mumbling your problems and yet, not telling me anything, I really feel like strangling you. By the way, don’t expect me to tell you my problems too. This is how I operate -using the golden rule.

& I realised how much I hate to be restricted. Don’t like anyone to get onto my back. Don’t like to care too much. Don’t like to report to someone the time I’m going home. Don’t like to put up boundaries for myself.

Kudos to freedom.

The Golden Rule

on 26 January, 2008 by sin2dy

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Another random post bcos I can’t think coherently now. Ever heard about the analogy of juggling 5 balls (Work, Love, Play, Time etc.) with your hands? I feel that I’ve gone offbeat and have trouble juggling all 5 balls now. I need to face the music (figuratively) and get my rthymn back.

My friend said smthg during our reflection time today which struck me as to how true it is.

She said our team has to find a same energy level because everyone is like pulling on this cloth in different directions and some tug harder than others. Obviously, the one that is always trying her best is me. ( Note: I’m not saying others don’t try, they just can’t be bothered by certain things that seem too simple for them)

I really enjoy most my courses these days because I can learn so much from them. My LTB prof is damn good in facilitating reflection sessions. Now, we’re supposed to reflect what is MY PERSONAL MISSION .

So many thoughts swirling around in my head & I feel like I’m rotting because my vision is blurred and my focus is diverted to everywhere.

1 thing I’m for sure is that I’m not comfortable with ppl I’m unfamiliar with to write my blog because I don’t want to be somebody that they can see through. Of course, I’m not trying to be scheming or anytg. (I think? ;P) I just want to reserve this small part of me for myself. As much as I am easygoing, I actually outrightly express my discomfort that I don’t want some people to view my blog.

Well.. if they find it, so be it. I’d take a leaf out of Xue’s blog and lock some personal thoughts then. I think I’m very protective -of both myself & my ladies. Because, from a man’s point of view (haha! you know why), there is so much control they can take over a woman. We have to be strong -claws out-

ps1: I’m astounded and definitely attracted to some pretty interesting people I met this sem. Call it a misfortune but I can’t bond with normal average beings because they just can’t enjoy & celebrate eccentricity.

ps2: My twc group is damn cold~ They can come up with the ‘broke back’ joke, the ‘white elephant’ and even make fun of me as ‘master debater’ without the de.

pps: U don’t have to get what they mean. COS THEY ARE ESKIMOS.

a tug of war

on 25 January, 2008 by sin2dy

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In fumes on 23 January, 2008 by sin2dy

IS SICK OF PROJECTS & PUSHING TROUBLES TO THE BACK OF HER MIND.

HAS TO WORK VERY HARD TO CLINCH HER A+.

BETTER WAKE UP BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE AGAIN.

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Hahaha. I’m watching Tila tequila’s reality show now (thanks to cass!) and jo & beaby, u guys would love this show, i guarantee!

A show oozing with sexuality & personality- 16 guys & girls fighting for the love of a bisexual. Thank god there is always smthg in this world to keep me entertained! :P

http://www.mtv.com/overdrive/?id=1571193&vid=180301

& I have been playing quite A LOT these days. Hahaha. Though I don’t deny that I’m really enjoying myself, the sense of guilt is killing me too. Now, it boils down to the question of how much for my gpa I would like to get this sem. Hmmmmm =/

Onto another subject, I cannot keep feeling discouraged every single time after those lessons. I know that & yet, I allow myself to wallow in self-pity & waste the whole day away. Time to push yourself woman.

Big girls don’t cry.

Post-editorial: Putting horny and fun stuffs aside, I feel quite disturbed that my IQ level is getting stagnant. Damn. It is not going up & when I look at my smu friends’ level, I feel like I’m retarded. I don’t like to feel stupid, seriously. Especially when you see some really bimbotic girls getting 4.13 for gpa. It’s all a facade. I need to remember that.

Man.. I desperately need to find ways to increase my IQ. One way is to be more cynical & critical. I tend to believe things on the surface. Sorry if I sound pretty competitive here. You wouldn’t understand unless you are in my position. =)

Les are SO hot!

on 22 January, 2008 by sin2dy

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I can’t help it but smile (:

In FUNNY CRAP, nostalgic on 17 January, 2008 by sin2dy

I still remember the day 3 outrageous girls hit the beaches & tried trekking tgt!The 2 photos below brought back so many many memories and happy times!

Hahaha!Look at our faces. The weather was scorching hot when we hit the road that day. &I can still remember we left our laundry hanging on a line at changi beach! & poor Xue got to walk all the way back to get it while Jo and me squatted by the highway roadside waiting for shannon & her to be back. DAMN FUNNY!

As you can guess, something hilarious happened. I like candid shots. Hahah! Xue was roaring with laughter with a lot of movements , Jojo was giggling like mad & somehow, I have this idea I’m the one making the joke bcos my reaction seems a bit too mild compared to the 2 siao ding dongs beside me in the photo~ =)

Life should be beautiful, because of the people in it.

<Post-editorial: Life can be ugly because of the people in it too. I suddenly feel very stressed in the middle of the night. I have never ever had insomnia, please don’t let this be the 1st night.>

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My god.

In M18 on 17 January, 2008 by sin2dy

Jap guys are SOOO horny. Sheesh. It’s a bit scary, if you think about it.

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In emo shit on 17 January, 2008 by sin2dy

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