It’s always hard to leave something behind, don’t you agree?
There will be this tug in your heart like a little kid pulling your sleeves, asking you not to leave them behind. However, as we all know, life is like a tug of war. We have to keep moving on and yet at the same time, stop and look back at how much we have covered to learn from the past.
I attended a workshop today and the guest speaker said “Life is just a collection of memories.” Somehow, this phrase kept revolving around my brain while I took the train home. Some memories are too beautiful to be forgotten, some are too agonizing to recall and some… are just wasted on doing routine stuffs like brushing your teeth etc. Therefore, I’m resolved to doing smthg different every single day.
I want to be different because I once read that “when life is not giving the answers you want, ask DIFFERENT questions.” The life I’ve envisioned is far from the present me. I want to be a workaholic now. I want to give my best NOW. As the video below will show, if not now, WHEN?
I’ve had my rest. I must start working towards my dreams already! Did you know that I want to be a motivational speaker,bizwoman, investor? This means that
1. I have to learn to speak properly (Help me with this! Correct my grammatical errors when I’m speaking with u my dears please.)
2. I have to have the discipline to go to Toastmasters to sharpen my presentation skills.
3. I have to go for investment meetings to grasp my concepts soon.
4. I have to blog more (HEHE) to encourage more coherent thoughts- processing.
Another phrase that captured my attention was what my professor (I’m in love with mature guys again! WAHAHA) say, “As you gather from my past, I look for QUALITY. Don’t try to suck up to me or impress me bcos so many people did that & I’m not impressed by you trying to impress me.”
After going through a gruelling semester with a particular course that is packed with injustice & unfairness, I’m VERY glad and absolutely LOVE professors that are objective and profound. Blessed with fairly good profs, it is now MY responsibility to do my best. I have to take the responsibility for my grades. I’ll work hard & smart. I WILL! (Next post will most probably directed to the ‘punishments’ & my ‘rewards’ to ensure I reach my target)
Last of all, my gpa. My friends were gossiping about this v.smart girl that got a gpa of 3.3 and carelessly commented “wah. why so screwed up~” Upon hearing this, my heart dropped to the ground literally. If my gpa is revealed, won’t I have no place in their eyes? Not that I care about them but I have to have to have to have to do well this sem. I will change the way I work this sem & hopefully, produce different & better results. Let us look forward to that (:
I’m ready now to start a new beginning, with all my hopes & my dreams
