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I believed an attitude change is really important. I must say I’ve learnt a lot from my comms and promo mgmt class.
In comms class,
Girl: Maybe it’s because people see her as a female, hence not strong leader.
Hot comms prof: This is ridiculous. Don’t make it into a gender issue -bcos it isn’t.
Girl: I’m just saying it’s a possibility. It’s not easy to handle that situation, especially when others are not really supportive of her as compared to having a man to take control in this case.
Prof: If you’re blaming this failure on her gender, then I would say it is never going to work. You can’t go into business with such a paradigm.
I find myself nodding vigorously at his comments in class. He changed my belief. I’m not going to tell anyone about the difference between a man/woman and how I belong to the former anymore. People shouldn’t judge or have preconceived perceptions of what a male/female leadership should be like. If I have to stand up for myself, I would say ‘No, this is not because of my sex. This is just me.’ :) & Prof is hilarious. I was just talking to myself, ‘Is this the same person?’ and he thought I said, ‘Is she lesbian?’ *laughs*
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Although many commented how dreadfully boring my PM Prof is, I feel motivated to listen to him and I think he has nice eyes. :P Today’s consultation with him makes me realized just how knowledgeable he is. He shared with me how knowledge is build upon knowledge, how research must go hand in hand with teaching to bring more up-to-date information and value to the class. & I’m pleasantly surprised that he actually has a funny side to him! I was asking him why does he have 2 laptops with him? He said, “one for each hand!” hahaha.
If only my gpa could skyrocket all the way till I graduate, I might consider being a prof as my retirement plan. I love the dynamics in this environment.
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Tyra banks is really one woman I look up to in so many ways. Through this season of ANTM, I think I get the main message which is, people are going to focus on your weakness. That is the reality. It is up to you to have the confidence to take their focus out of your weakness and be drawn to something more captivating. Classy.
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One last thing which really changes me a lot over this summer is my crisis management skills. Because of FTB, I’m faced with life & death decisions to make, faced with people with dislocated arm, asthmatic attacks and possible h1n1 carriers. I learnt to force myself to remain calm, to think rationally and to encourage people when they’re going through their hard or painful times. This makes me realized if I were to be thrown into another emergency situation again, I will not panick like a gan chiong spider like I used to. I can deal with it already. It’s encouraging to know that although my academic skills might have sucked for the past sem, I acquired life skills.
“I just want you to be yourself. Be a bigger yourself.” -Tyra
Archive for February, 2008
I am..
a good team member, a bad daughter.
a good company, a bad friend.
a good rational woman, a bad emotional man.
a good talker, a bad speaker.
a good worker, a bad leader.
a good failure, a bad success.
Things just seem so overwhelmingly complex at this point. I have to control this sense of loss and continue seeking for answers. Somebody, just knock me out with a golf club.
It seems like misery loves misery…
A good failure; a bad success.
The talk with Lawrence makes me think about my dream again.
He says “if that is really ur dream, why’re u waiting until 4 years later to realise it? why not now?”
That.. I can’t answer.
Then, we talked about the belief in ourselves. Should it be blind or not?
If I have a dream,I don’t just talk about it. It’s not too late yet bcos at least I have a dream alr.
If I have a dream, i should have started working on it alr. Goodness, I feel awake now.
here’s smthg entertaining for you! Good dy! (:
TWENTY -about time to start.
TOO complicated
if it is not hard, it is not life.
im sick of selfish bastards. im sick of being manipulated & knowing it until much later.
im sick of emotional talks which drained alot of my energy & time.
im sick of second guessing. im sick of pleasing. im sick of secrets.
im sick of humans.
Can i leave this Earth?
I just wonder why some people are much more intelligent than others & yet, they choose to make mistakes.
I’m appalled by the amount of stuffs that can affect us negatively each day.
I’m worried that people might think belittle of me bcos I’m not good enough.
I’m afraid that I can never make it to a A student.
I’m scared that as objective & just the prof might sound, she has smthg against me.
I’m disturbed by my short attention span & inability to conc in class after coming into university.
I’m upset that I’m not living up to my expectations, thereby suffering from a personal syndrome known as disappointment-&-losing-hope- stage.
I wish I could have been brighter. I wish I could have been more empowered. I wish I could have manage my time better. I wish I could have think more in-depth. I wish I could have plan ahead. I wish I could have picked up more skills. I wish, I wish, I wish.
Wishes will never come true, unless I do smthg about it. Thank god for the term break. I need time to readjust my attitude & to really MUG for my A+.
there is so many reasons to feel not good enough. Do I know where I am heading to?
Musings.
time- again and again.
Time flies.
What you should realise is not that
my hair grows longer,
I become slimmer,
I have a better dress sense,
I know how to put on make-up,
I’ve thrown away my old pair of glasses.
What you should realise is that
I’ve matured,
I’ve experienced a lot more in life,
I’ve grown stronger,
I’ve changed my plans,
I have got over this loss of friendship,
I’m moving on.
It’s a different sin yi that you knew 8 months ago.
I’m different -inside out.
We’re not the same as we once were. I don’t think I can connect with you anymore.
If to forgive is divine, I know that I’m not divine.
I’m not ready to forgive you- I’d probably never will.
p.s. if you ever read this post, don’t be sad our friendship is over.
Be glad that it happened =)
Just like how I do enjoyed my time with you before
I’M LOVED! <3
Busty cass just released this candid photo ( I DIDN’T KNOW she was taking. Sneaky woman~) of my horny look to the whole world online. DIE. My innocence all gone. She took away all of it, without leaving some for me~ -whimpers-
Hahaha. I’m SUPER busy again! 2 BIG presentations coming up next week!!!!!!!! (Sry beaby! I know I’m lagging. Pls look forward to pics of my SPECIAL V’day 2008 by end of next week k!)
Despite the so-busy-till-I-have-no-time-to-shit-or-breathe period I’m undergoing for now, I just want to post a shout out that I’m fine bcos I’m greatly loved! (hahah. So bhb this day, muz be caught it from cass~~)
I accompanied my beaby to watch P.s. I love you last night. & we cried througout the movie. (that gives you a rough idea that the storyline is quite touching)
& as I rushed to bugis, guess who I bumped into?? DENISE THAM! Omgosh. The little woman is still so cute & straightforward by calling her ex an asshole. Hahaha, I’ve got to catch up with her soon so that I can hear her story! Meow. Miss steph too.
& as I walked another 200m ahead, I heard an excited shout-out by…LING XUAN. Arrgh. Total orgasm. Hahaha. So great to hold her in my arms again & hear her rumblings~
and and! catching such a great movie with beaby makes me happy too =)
“If you think you’re alone, then we’re all in this together” Yes, that is pretty comforting man. Watching the show makes me feel that it’s so AWESOME for a guy to have a plan for his love. It shows that he doesn’t want her to get lost, he wants to spend the rest of his life carrying out the plan to bring happiness to the girl. DAMN SWEET. (p.s. I have a plan too ladies~ hahaha!)
The crazying around at Bedok platform with beaby is certainly a REFRESHING experience. I bet those security officers got a free entertainment video! ;)
& today! On my way to sch, I had a romantic exchange of smses with my dear Cindy. Plus my teammate reassured me that I don’t have huge thighs. Haha! & spent my day studying with bro & K. Over dinner, I accidentally spilled soup on myself & was made fun of by the 2 of them who said I got wet!! -.-”
I was having a debate with K in the lib of why women aren’t stupider than men & I asked him if he thinks I’m dumb. He says he is nt sure if I’m a man or woman, then he surprised me by patting my head & say “That’s why you are lovable“
Hahah! Yes, men can be quite sweet sometimes. But I told K that I think he is a bastard bcos of certain perspectives he holds. Well, this is me. Not taken in by honeyed words. Randomly switching btwn my manly & womanly sides. Having a smile to share my joy with everyone. This is me. & thank god there are people who appreciates this kind of human form (refering to myself ;P)
P.s. I love you all
The day started off with a sickly and “attitude” me dragging my feet to school.
Miraculously, things started taking an upturn and joyful incidents just come 1 right after another. This is why I’m typing in front of my com happily at the end of the day now.
First, I got hyped up seeing & settling stuff with Sandy :D Then, bumped into xin yi (who is damn cute. she tried to tickle me neh!) & many ‘last sem’ friends
Then, Ltb was DAMN FUNNY listening to the diffs between how MAN & WOMAN communicate. I really think I am stuck. I possess both sexes’ traits! The world should recognise a new sex genre, probably called OMAN. (HEHEHE. I’m damn lame. ;P)
Next, Ams entertained me on the way back about how she finds *censored* so like a sex bomb bcos he is smart & has a good body with a good dress sense. I was laughing my head off when she suggested that I should “accidentally” spill some water on him or just rip off his shirt.
Following was my tuition with my kid & she gave me a lollipop with flowerish petals she made! Omg. I’m so happy laa. It’s really cute! I’ll upload the photo soon k? & the way she holds the lollipop with 2 hands and passed it to me with the innocent cute face.
& as I walked back home while grinning to myself, my cousin -Ling called out to me! I thought that she isn’t close nor prefer not to acknowledge me if she was to bumped into me. Nonetheless, it is heartening to see her thinking sensibly for her future and to know that we can chat with each other like old friends (:
Then, I was super touched when I read the comment Ting dropped me from the previous post. This girl that always cares for me. As open-minded as I am, I am still an Asian who believes that blood is thicker than water. I feel it’s good to be naturally bonded with someone so BRILLIANT in all aspects.
You know how bad events usually come 1 right after another? I didn’t know it works for good events too! ( Maybe I’m just practising positive thinking here. HAHA)
To celebrate the festive of love ( VALENTINE’S DAY~~), here is a link my friend passed to me which shows a really touching love story:
Read it if you have the time ok! (;
Regarding my issue of the previous post, I decided to put it at the back of my mind. I will give it some serious thought when I can spare the time. For now, life is too hectic and I should therefore concentrate on being HAPPY and doing my WORK instead of indulging in meaningless melancholic thoughts.
I’m being kidnapped by my dears on v’dy later! Hahaha, I’m getting excited. Lol ;P
May all relationships blossom (:
HAPPINESS!!! :D
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