(FTB Run 1) Facilitator

- a person who makes progress easier.

Thanks to Mich who selflessly agree to co-faci with me instead of allowing me to be her shadow faci, i’ve learnt ALOT about myself & her facilitation style. My group, Buttercup, really makes me feel accomplished and appreciated when I see them growing and learning so much =)

Once again, a flashback of memories…

sensing their high morale and proud grins when they complete their activity, pushing them to storm & learn, having a heartache & extremely disappointed when they don’t learn from their lessons, feeling a huge wave of relief seeing them implementing what I’ve suggested to them, go crazy & high with them, taking SUPER unglam shots of them, caring & loving each of them so much and to keep reminding myself to look out for their safety, having meals & talk-cock sessions with them, them painting my face with multiple colours, me having green paint on my teeth, liyan wiping my face for me, miao xia leading the section cheer, we having our hungry hungry cheer, me scaring the shit out of Edwin & Kevin when I jumped out from behind *evil grin*, me feeling super touched when Stanley helped me to ask every faci for my missing shoebag, me laughing at the reflection of my own dark face (bcos of the black army paint), me trying out the ENO naming thing with Bud urging me to do so, the team taking our share for every meal, me laughing at Lifa for saying “Spatman” for batman (HAHA), looking at the team having fun rafting, feeling like a mum when they were rafting back to the shore, feeling extremely proud of them for growing so much as a team, us doing forfeit tgt collecting water bcos of a water shortage in Spore (hahah!), me & other facis dancing on stage for campfire to hype them up, Stanley & Shaz laughing their asses out when I say I’m a man & both teased to propose to me (wahaha! they make me sound like a joke -.-), us solving the ‘open close open close’ game tgt, me being really worried and troubled for Hui Fang when I feel her cold limbs and hear her breathing so hard, me forcing myself to stay calm as the org comm calls for a cab to send her to the hospital, me encouraging Buttercup throughout the Last Stand, me laughing at Alex for guessing ‘tinky winky’ for smtg green which is Shrek, me running tgt with the team, me worrying for Mich bcos of her back probs, me falling into the drain in front of my freshies *super embarrassed*, me disregarding my aching knuckle & helping them out to push the ball out of  the bucket, the team appreciating daren for running non-stop to help our team, the girls snatching my hp away & dunking me into the sea, Clive & shaz asking me to go over with a serious face & then dunking me AGAIN into the sea, me playing “Em-chi-chi” in the sea with the team, Li Min saying ‘ chubby wabby’ in the sea, George self-dunked himself, Alex bathing in the sea while the team sings Girlfriend by pussycat dolls, stanley telling me i look nicer when i’m wet -_-”"”, having end-of-camp debrief with the team & feeling very lucky to see that they all have take away smtg from this 3dys 2 nights, me laughing at Daren for saying he is born with such a ‘gui lan’ face & can’t do anytg about it, ME SLEEPING 4 HR EACH DY (& super mega shagged for my end of dy debrief with Daren), me pushing myself to get up & be punctual every morning to be a role model for my team, me getting 2 SHADES DARKER & GLOWING TANNED SKIN

1 camp. So much emotions involved. So much I have learnt.

Omgg, i LOVE Buttercups & Michelle =)

[nonetheless, i miss my soft soft bed so much. & my family too- i just went straight home to hug my mum after camp~]

Now it’s Bondue time!!!

post-editorial: An email I received that is surprisingly honest & touching *sweet sweet smile*

hey powerpuffs,

nice to see our faci making some effort with the contact list yea?.. thnking back bout our camp, i thought we really did enjoy the activities n company from the start till the end. i checked with some friends from other groups and they did not enjoy half as much as we did, and when i asked why, they say their faci would, during debriefs, mark them down for their inabilities or bad team management. we ought to be thankful for having such positive and encouraging facis. my heartfelt appreciations to u.

run 4 is coming up, n we have faith in u 2 facis to put into them the same u have done in us. dont compare us with them in anyways though. i’ll be looking forward to our next outing, n see u guys then. (n facis, better not forget our names then)

ever-charming, and still growing in that,

the very very humble,

me

A [PMS] post

does all these bills and insurance policies mailed to me suggest that i’m a grown up already?

does having a spending power signifies my social status of a young adult already?

after blowing so many candles & eating so many cakes, now I realized that all those celebrations are mere ceremonies to push me into accepting that I’m older.

tsk, i’m dismayed. & tired.

Post-editorial: my friend is coming up with original pick-up lines from Jan to Dec. Here’s to share with you guys the May’s one “you’re the easter bunny when you smile =) “

Still busy?!

A response I got throughout my entire summer.

*sighs* Yes my dearies, I won’t be free all the way till school starts. Other than my supper slots that are free for you guys to take, I’m terribly packed.

I don’t even have the luxury to hide inside my room for 3 days to just watch my stack of drama series and munch on junk food anymore ):

& I’m suddenly faced with life & death stories among my circle of friends. *double sighs* Makes me feel like giving up all my work & spent more time with my family. I really need to cherish my loved ones before they are gone (as in out of my life!).

If possible, I SO want to hug every single one of my friend and tell them to take care of themselves, seriously. And, I want to spend days slacking at home & watch tv & have dinner with my family. But life is often like this -what we want isn’t what we get. So, I just have to be strong & continue on! *tighten imaginary rope ard forehead*

Signing off with lots of love,

Sin.

learning from work

I learnt that I’m a typical Singaporean -very gan chiong! hahah.

Amongst the potpourri of interesting characters I’ve come across, there is one who leaves the deepest impression on me.

She came bouncing to our bar & was THRILLED to see the new packaging for Jack Daniel’s. She was grinning and talking excitedly to her hubby. We were so happy to serve such a happy person! Hahaha.

So we asked her husband ‘Is you wife so happy everyday?’. He smiled at her, rolled his eyes to the ceiling and say in a tongue-in-cheek manner, ‘oh yes!’ & my colleague and I were saying “how lucky of you to have such a happy wife” & that lady skipped back & gave him a big bear hug while saying “hear that? you’re lucky you have a happy wife!”

:) I want to be like her. Oblivious or perhaps unconcerned of how others view her, just be super uber happy everyday. HAHAHA. Happiness is contagious. Spread it around!! *grins*

HI!

Any Jack Daniel’s for you, sir? *bright smile*

Hahaha. I have something to confess. I’m beginning to pick up slight bits of professional customer service. A warm greeting, a sincere attitude to interact with others and a constant smile to break the ice. That being said, I was told by my male colleague that I’m OVER- friendly. I was asked by 3 guys for my number during work today- an Indian, a Chinese Indonesia and a Philippino. *trying to picture my future Indian husband. hahaha!* I am genuinely surprised when the Indian guy (those fair skin with sharp features kind) requested for my number. My friend was telling me when I work, I’m very smiley & sweet to my customers. Maybe that’s how they got the wrong message. Tsk tsk, I’m not surprised all these businessmen have a dozen of flings abroad.

& that was one point in time my male colleague asked me to stand behind the bar. Hence, I went behind it and he told me that an indian 用他的眼睛脱我衣服 (visualizing me naked). I was damn freaked out because

1. I was happily chatting with that indian a moment ago

2. I was blur enough not to notice him staring at me for a long time

Ugghh. These are the times I hope I can show him my dick man. HAHAHAHA. Ok, I am disgusting =P [but men are worse! ~.~']

Perhaps today’s incidents throughout work just prompted me to take the “What kind of heart do you have” quiz on facebook. & GUESS WHAT?!!! Here’s the results! *bright grin*

Not bad ehh? ;)

Lastly, I’m addicted to Connie Talbot (the CUTE 7 years old girl who sang ‘Somewhr over the rainbow’ on Britain’s Got Talent) version of ” I will always love you”. TOTALLY melts my heart with her sweet innocent voice & u wonder what kind of love she knows of to sing with such emotions. (: (:

If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way

And I will always love you
I will always love you

You, my darling you

Bittersweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So goodbye, please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you need

I hope life treats you kind,
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all this, I wish you love

I'll always, I'll always love you... <3

Are we mere talk?

the infamous smu jump. the never-ending presentation of oneself.

the eloquent talk and well-practiced networking skills.

Why do people fail to think for themselves, but blindly take the set of values the school system pushes to them? Why do they lack the courage to stop believing in the system and start believing in themselves to decide what they really like and want to excel in?

What’s worse is these confounded youngsters are arrogant of who they’re morphed into and start parading their abilities -which are none other than the ability to talk. As most of my friends would know, I’m not a good promoter of my school because I can tell instinctively, the superficial culture is built on gossips and more of it. I strongly advocate “empty vessels make the most noise” and university life opened my eyes to a fair amount of such real-life instances.

Maybe the reason for me to be in this school is to train me to listen. & I would agree totally that it’s an area which I can improve on because of my naturally loud and talkative nature. In any case, I refused to become the typical smu kid – all talk & no action.

Also, the different universities we go to does not signify what kind of stereotypes each of us would fit neatly into. It is probably more important than anything to see a person for he/she is rather than judging by the school he/she attended.

After all, we are all different. (not made different, but ARE different) =)

LMAO!

For instant stress relief.  (only if you’re familiar with popular pop songs)

This 2nd video is a MUST-WATCH. Too funny for words =D =D

my present tussle in life

I think this is an endurance test of my energy & patience.

I can safely declare I’m a fully committed member of any event, regardless of my position. I give my 100% -my time, my thoughts, my enthusiasm, my attention and everything! & I understand it’s a personal choice. I refused to see history repeats itself but as much as I don’t want it, the effort of me alone won’t suffice.

I am tired.

I told her straight in the face firmly that, if the event can’t be perfect, I’d rather not do it. No support, no time, nothing for me to come up with something. HOW?

& my pursuit of professionalism continues. But I lost my temper during 1 of the games. I agree it’s hard to talk down to my peers but all I was seeking is only their cooperation. But of course, I could have better handle that situation. 4 hours of sleep and endless slogging the previous day only makes me more pms-ish than I want to be.

I went home yrstrday, skipped dinner and fell unconscious on my bed till this morning. For a person who usually slept at 3am watching shows with her siblings to one who sleeps at 8pm without uttering a word to anyone, I have a hate-love relationship with my life now. Hahah.

Looking at the bright side of things, this is so-called training for my ’soon-to-come’ entrepreneur endeavour. If there is smtg I refused to lose out to others, it’s my commitment level.

Then again, I have to have the brains. For next sem, I am taking all my classes with good profs and super smart friends when I promised myself that it’s the time for me to focus entirely to pull up my grades (without needing to care for or be affected by driving classes). *sighs* Time to face the competition again when I haven’t rest enough this summer break. Plus, I foresee I won’t be seeing my friends as we’ll all be super mega packed. *sad smile* Such is life.

Love story

I matchmake a cute couple together! (: (: A brief introduction and a lot of happy time spent together make it happened =D I’m so so happy for them.

I was then probed by many to think for myself and can still recall beaby saying ‘if anyone likes her ah, i can just pass him a knife to stab himself’. hahaha. What a thought-provoking remark but I have no time nor energy to think about that.

Sch is starting in 1 month time & I got into all the classes packed with smarties with me needing to pull up my gpa next sem *blarghhh*

post-editorial: people like to pretend to care. in actual fact, every man is for himself. I agree I am short-sighted and I see so many instant solutions. but i don’t believe i won’t get what i want. dare me.

oh, really?

`zao – says:
meaning…those in poverty understands happiness better than those living in the cities…n u wonder why.
`zao – says:
i pondered…n well i came up with my own conclusions…u can come up with ur own
`zao – says:
(;

Some people needs probing in their thinking, some do the probing. How I wish I’m the latter -_-