I believed an attitude change is really important. I must say I’ve learnt a lot from my comms and promo mgmt class.
In comms class,
Girl: Maybe it’s because people see her as a female, hence not strong leader.
Hot comms prof: This is ridiculous. Don’t make it into a gender issue -bcos it isn’t.
Girl: I’m just saying it’s a possibility. It’s not easy to handle that situation, especially when others are not really supportive of her as compared to having a man to take control in this case.
Prof: If you’re blaming this failure on her gender, then I would say it is never going to work. You can’t go into business with such a paradigm.
I find myself nodding vigorously at his comments in class. He changed my belief. I’m not going to tell anyone about the difference between a man/woman and how I belong to the former anymore. People shouldn’t judge or have preconceived perceptions of what a male/female leadership should be like. If I have to stand up for myself, I would say ‘No, this is not because of my sex. This is just me.’ :) & Prof is hilarious. I was just talking to myself, ‘Is this the same person?’ and he thought I said, ‘Is she lesbian?’ *laughs*
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Although many commented how dreadfully boring my PM Prof is, I feel motivated to listen to him and I think he has nice eyes. :P Today’s consultation with him makes me realized just how knowledgeable he is. He shared with me how knowledge is build upon knowledge, how research must go hand in hand with teaching to bring more up-to-date information and value to the class. & I’m pleasantly surprised that he actually has a funny side to him! I was asking him why does he have 2 laptops with him? He said, “one for each hand!” hahaha.
If only my gpa could skyrocket all the way till I graduate, I might consider being a prof as my retirement plan. I love the dynamics in this environment.
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Tyra banks is really one woman I look up to in so many ways. Through this season of ANTM, I think I get the main message which is, people are going to focus on your weakness. That is the reality. It is up to you to have the confidence to take their focus out of your weakness and be drawn to something more captivating. Classy.
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One last thing which really changes me a lot over this summer is my crisis management skills. Because of FTB, I’m faced with life & death decisions to make, faced with people with dislocated arm, asthmatic attacks and possible h1n1 carriers. I learnt to force myself to remain calm, to think rationally and to encourage people when they’re going through their hard or painful times. This makes me realized if I were to be thrown into another emergency situation again, I will not panick like a gan chiong spider like I used to. I can deal with it already. It’s encouraging to know that although my academic skills might have sucked for the past sem, I acquired life skills.
“I just want you to be yourself. Be a bigger yourself.” -Tyra
i feel like having a long deep sleep. i have to swear 4209238 times before I can drag myself to wake up every morning.
thanks jojo for putting up with my whinings & despair. thanks for the song too -i love it. <3
Presenting to you ‘Thunder -boys like girls’
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder
i did my work & have meetings non-stop from 8am till 10.30pm today.
i’m really freaking tired. no matter how many bubbly voices i heard when my frens called, im really tooooo tired to reciprocate the same highness.I’m so shagged i can’t be bothered to see who walked past me or observe my surroundings or try to be tactful.
my mind is like when a battery is almost finishing. the gameboy switches on for a split second & then auto off.
this is the times i just wanna a biiiigg hug from my dears ):
sometimes, when ppl tell you that it’s going to be alright, it sounds like they’re just consoling you bcos they can’t do anytg else much. & thr are times when some ppl just tell me to hang on there & i will do it. It’s just a little bit more, i keep telling myself.
I WANT TO HIBERNATE. DESTRESS. I feel like biting my tongue and dying in front of the com. Hahahahah.
I already feel very emotionless these days but I suppressed SO MANY outbursts today. I can do it one. JUST A BIT MORE. ): ):
post-editorial. i know it’s full of grammatical errors. it just shows how shagged i am. i can’t be bothered to correct myself, seriously.
*ps. makes you feel like clubbing. heh. Here goes the lyrics (:
Superstar
Where you from, hows it going?
I know you
Gotta clue, what youre doing?
You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here
But I know what you are, what you are, baby
Look at you
Gettin more than just re-up
Baby, you
Got all the puppets with their strings up
Fakin like a good one, but I call em like I see em
I know what you are, what you are, baby
Womanizer
Boy, dont try to front
I know just what you are
Womanizer
Daddy-O
You got the swagger of champions
Too bad for you
Just cant find the right companion
I guess when you have one too many, makes it hard
It could be easy, but thats who you are, baby
Lollipop
Must mistake me as a sucker
To think that I
Would be a victim not another
Say it, play it how you wanna
But no way Im ever gonna fall for you, never you, baby
Maybe if we both lived in a different world
It would be all good, and maybe I could be ya girl
But I cant cause we dont
i don’t even want to think abt plans for holidays. give me a break. like seriously, i’d just leave all the plans into their hands. worse come to worse, i’d drive up to KL & go crazy shopping thr.
it’s like in a black hole of work. jo will peep in sometimes to check that i’m still smiling (:
& i’ve turned passive in a lot of things. it’s friggin draining to be active 24/7. i’d save my energy & go crazy with some people =)
forgive me if i whine a little sometimes. i’ll whine for all i care, but ultimately i’d get my stuffs done. so keep ur comments to yourself. thank you for all ur concern, i’m getting by fine :D
i have to coax myself to study. 1 chapter done = 1 chocolate.
* ps. jojo, i can’t leave a msg at multiply anymore. they lost my password or smtg. damn irritating. i want to tell you (no matter how many times you’ve heard this) you must be strong. I wish i can be there for you ):
i think this is like a trial in your lifetime. face it and conquer it k. i believe with all my heart you’d emerge stronger =)
* pps. ting, thanks for keeping me going. <3
ps to self: i cannot fall apart. i have to find my old self back at this crucial moment.
I think I have an alter ego. & today she has completely taken over me.
I just want to keep sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeping. It feels SO awesome just lying on my bed and entering my dreams. I don’t want to wake up and face the work. Even Mummy says that she feels like sleeping, watching me sleep.
I think I’m so going to die. 1 mid terms, 1 report, 2 quizzes, 1 presentation, 1 proposal due next week. *repulsed*
