他们都不明白

如果不能全给我， 就全都别给我

Everything is just a matter of convenience. Now I see.

Lost connection

I slept 3/4 of my birthday away and cut off all connections by switching off my hp.

I needed rest badly, and I think that being 20 is nothing special.

A lot of wishes this year were about telling me to rest more and take time off to enjoy myself. I want to.. & I NEED to. I feel that bcos of I prioritize work above everything else, I’m slowly losing my love ones ):

Today, I was REALLY hoping that I can finish the project meeting soon and fly back home to see my parents who I miss sooooo much ): But when I rushed home way past dinner time, they were asleep already. ): ):

I want to give them a hug and tell them how much I miss them. But I can’t put my work on hold -never bear to do that. I think it takes a lot to love a daughter like me. I’m always not there. I’m always caught up in my own work. I’m always too tired to hear them out. I’m always stressed and unhappy.

Why can’t I be selfish for once and not care about the millions of work-related thoughts going through my mind? Why can’t I just walk off for once and show my parents how important they are to me?

I just want them to know I love them -SO MUCH. ):