I believed an attitude change is really important. I must say I’ve learnt a lot from my comms and promo mgmt class.
In comms class,
Girl: Maybe it’s because people see her as a female, hence not strong leader.
Hot comms prof: This is ridiculous. Don’t make it into a gender issue -bcos it isn’t.
Girl: I’m just saying it’s a possibility. It’s not easy to handle that situation, especially when others are not really supportive of her as compared to having a man to take control in this case.
Prof: If you’re blaming this failure on her gender, then I would say it is never going to work. You can’t go into business with such a paradigm.
I find myself nodding vigorously at his comments in class. He changed my belief. I’m not going to tell anyone about the difference between a man/woman and how I belong to the former anymore. People shouldn’t judge or have preconceived perceptions of what a male/female leadership should be like. If I have to stand up for myself, I would say ‘No, this is not because of my sex. This is just me.’ :) & Prof is hilarious. I was just talking to myself, ‘Is this the same person?’ and he thought I said, ‘Is she lesbian?’ *laughs*
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Although many commented how dreadfully boring my PM Prof is, I feel motivated to listen to him and I think he has nice eyes. :P Today’s consultation with him makes me realized just how knowledgeable he is. He shared with me how knowledge is build upon knowledge, how research must go hand in hand with teaching to bring more up-to-date information and value to the class. & I’m pleasantly surprised that he actually has a funny side to him! I was asking him why does he have 2 laptops with him? He said, “one for each hand!” hahaha.
If only my gpa could skyrocket all the way till I graduate, I might consider being a prof as my retirement plan. I love the dynamics in this environment.
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Tyra banks is really one woman I look up to in so many ways. Through this season of ANTM, I think I get the main message which is, people are going to focus on your weakness. That is the reality. It is up to you to have the confidence to take their focus out of your weakness and be drawn to something more captivating. Classy.
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One last thing which really changes me a lot over this summer is my crisis management skills. Because of FTB, I’m faced with life & death decisions to make, faced with people with dislocated arm, asthmatic attacks and possible h1n1 carriers. I learnt to force myself to remain calm, to think rationally and to encourage people when they’re going through their hard or painful times. This makes me realized if I were to be thrown into another emergency situation again, I will not panick like a gan chiong spider like I used to. I can deal with it already. It’s encouraging to know that although my academic skills might have sucked for the past sem, I acquired life skills.
“I just want you to be yourself. Be a bigger yourself.” -Tyra
I’m so sad I can’t squeeze out time for my dears who need me there. ):
I don’t understand why I have so much to do either.
Maybe I have poor time management. Maybe I don’t feel safe letting others to take the helm. Maybe I’m used to taking charge. Maybe not a lot of people are stepping up. [post-editorial: both guys told me the same reason. i'm a magnet to responsibility.]
But I’m tired.
I kept dozing off on trains.
I really need to prioritize. & start working.
For the first time since primary school days, there is this irrational fear of failing my exams which gripped me.
I really think I might fail my courses. Before I die from shame, I will die from guilt. I will.
My friends, if I tell you I love you, I really really do.
But sometimes, I don’t. Even when I really care for you, I can don’t talk for you for weeks. But look into my eyes (although they are small & a bit hard to find. haha!), I hope you can sense that I care.
Sandy makes me emo la! hahaha, she showed me this link: Sad story
& I realized how important it is to show your love.*sniffs*
The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23.
The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US .
Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.
In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of quimo to end.
In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care
of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss
An unusual accessory at the partywas the oxygen tube that katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.
The other couple in the picture are Nick’s parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.
Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening to a song from her husband and friends
At the reception, katie had to take a few rests.The pain does not allow her to stand up for long periods
Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a woman so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think…..Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should stop making our lives complicated.
Life is short
Break the rules
forgive quickly
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.
After a lot of commands & changes, we (sandy, cass, shihui, tina, elly, haoming, allan & me) all finally had our dinner together!
But honestly speaking, I enjoyed myself tremendously. We crazy girls are just laughing madly and chatting about random stuffs. [cass + shihui = funny double combo! sandy = best host! tina & elly =super crazy! haoming & allan =very sporting dudes ]
I think I’m sadistic. I enjoy the fact that I laughed until my stomach ached=P
Like Sandy says, I hope we won’t drift apart too. *love you girls!*
I strongly detest the fact that everything APPEARS to be nice on the surface, but really. have tempers simmering, gossips spreading & lots of hidden dissatisfaction beneath the surface.
AND this is happening to all the groups I’m involved in for this sem, I feel.
Is it a YEAR 2 SYNDROME?
Can’t people just be OPEN about how they feel?
I conclude, there is a massive lack of proactive people in Singapore. (or rather, in my environment)
I remember vividly using this song title as my blog title before. That was a motivational post & by conditioning (cb’s concept.haha), I’m reminding myself to shed away that layer of apathy.
I can be someone who doesn’t bother. & when I can’t be bothered with smtg, I think it’s evident. I like to be passionate in whatever I’m doing, no matter how small it is. If I can’t muster up that energy & belief, I stop caring completely.
Hmm. In relation to school life, the flame of my passion has sadly died down to a small sparkle every now & then; my belief has been shaken & influenced. This – is not me & I don’t want to be someone who is influenced by her environment so easily.
This is when I realized unfortunately, not a lot of people are reliable. I’m that kind of people who values substance more than talk. “You are what you DO, not what you say“. I am a strong believer of that.
I was quite peeved with the group but I chose to kept quiet. Actually, I still feel that work & friendship should be set apart not to complicate matters. I don’t care if the animations for the presentation is ‘wowww’ when I can see TYPO errors & unaligned bullet points. [it is probable that he might come across this post since my blog is open to public. BUT I would still speak my mind because no offence, we are really not that good as we thought. Don't overestimate ourselves, really.]
What causes me to fire off this post, I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I’m reaching the limit of my patience. Maybe I realized that I’m having a bad attitude by closing one eye for these projects for quite some time. Maybe I was reminded to not be complacent from the video below..
As I was having a rare moment of bumming around in the house yesterday, I watched this video again and teared.
She is 12 & full of passion & goals which she actively pursued. She reminds me of me when I was 14. I am 21, wtf have I done?
I’m getting from bad to worse. fell asleep with my contacts on.
tsktsk. slept quite abit bcos of my sore eye. emo quite abit. then…
mummy brought home a nice g2000 blazer which initially costs $147 but she got it at 78% off from the robinsons sale for me. =]]]
An awesome buy which sort of brighten up my night a little. I feel like going thr to get those chio guess pumps & espirt bags la!
Dinner is my fav thai food. spread of mindblowing tom yam soup, green curry chicken & pineapple rice is pure bliss. To end it off with soya ice cream is just too shiok for words. heheh. My tummy is definitely getting bigger. but ahacks! i need good food to keep me happy for now.
self-reminder: ask mel & ams for the bks on communicatn.
*photo credits to shi hui
