Staring straight back at me

With each new day she weeps, she laughs back
She reflects.
And searches. and searches.

I really love these 3 lines. Dawn Yang always managed to blog something marvellous (as expected from an rj girl) which refrains me  from labelling bimbo.

Today was the freest day I have since a loooong time back. Although I was bubbly & hopping mad in the early afternoon, stressed over the gift I was preparing, I spent a reasonably quiet & peaceful Sunday afternoon with Corns.

Grinning at the sight of the blue sea & its strong white waves, feeling the breeze playing around my hair, gushing over cute pups/dogs & their resemblance to the owners, doing random weird poses for the camera, having high (polka green) tea picnic session with unagi sushi… it was such a wonderful feeling.

I panicked at one point, feeling restless & worried about the thousands of things I threw to the back of my mind. However, to make the most out of everything, I concentrate back on ‘thinking about nothing’.

This weekend was pretty fulfilling for me. I love to bring smiles to my dears’ faces. No matter how down I feel, it would perk me up =)

Now, the ball is back in my court. I’d have to go down into detailed planning for the week to come. I shall go back to work, with a heart packed with love.

*Don’t be bogged down with the many challenges life may present,

so much so that you forget the very purpose of life – and that is to love.*

tan JO bee oh meh dei dor!

The above Japanese phrase I learnt translates into “happy birthday” & that’s what Corns sang for jo *sweet smile* heh.

Here are all my 心血 after spending hours & hours poring over the photos & editing them for dear Jojo’s 21st gift =)

One of the rare pics when Jo is not wearing either white or black! hahah

That’s the silly girl acting as a sea monster coming out of the water. It was so ridiculous I burst out laughing on the spot. Haha!

That’s our CORNS identity logo. Horns -me, Crown -xue, Angel- jo. (Obviously it should be the reverse. HAHA)

She’s so cute Xue wants to pinch her every time she sees this photo of Jo!

One of Xue’s comical noise which amuses her to no end.I wonder is the pose supposed to resemble a penguin?

I’m putting up a mega size of the favourite photo I edited. I love the effect & font (& the girls of course!)

ohhh models with long legs & wind-blowing effect~ Hehe.

All sticky & high together. Yippee!

How we first met. At salty eyes-stinging seawater of dirty Changi beach.

Just like how superstarz rockzz.

nobody nobody but chu!

This is my team ‘Knotty Naughty’ where I see invaluable potential & great cute kids =)

Some of their comments or actions are soo cute they just melts my heart. =]

ps// my friend is having bouts of bimboism. we’re going ‘blablabla..like TOTALLY’. kill meeeee -_-

this is so EXCITING.

http://members.iinet.net.au/~pontipak/redsquare.html

Omg. this game is so heart-racing!! Jaryl & I were playing this in the office & his fastest record was 11 seconds, mine is 4. hahah. My heart was in my throat, ready to jump out.

Beat us!

zyi & his hit-right-on-the-spot phrase again

“filters dont work with sinyi very well”.

Hahaha, I agree.

I don’t quite like filtered thoughts, filtered perspectives, filtered words.

Who will know if the filter you always depend on is a faulty one? So, best is.. No filter! Just be open and genuine. =)

& I just shared with Jaryl my current favourite phrase

: Grab life by balls! Why regret?

Then, he commented that not everyone has balls.

So I replied, ‘It’s ok if there is non-existent balls. Just grope around.‘

& he told me he like the latter better -____- hahaha. It’s friday again! MYGOD.

Cindy’s 21st (:

Just got back from my dearest twin’s birthday party, & I’m glad she enjoyed herself. I bought really weird yet meaningful (i think) gifts for her & hope she like it. Since I’d be posting photos, this post shall be a collection of photos I took which I like for the past.. 2 weeks.

a freaking cute little watchman on jaryl’s desk.

the first time I ever seen latin dance on wheels. I assure you it’s still sizzling hot & very inspiring.

the big pink cake her friends bought for her.. which is totally not her style. haha

the two masterminds behind the attempts to make the poor bear fly with the balloons tied onto it

I like this candid shot a lot. How bright the girl’s smile was. How the rest started spraying her once they’re done with her b’dy song. hahaha, finally it’s her turn to be played~

& the 21 year old still runs around like a kid, playing with the cans of spraying foam.

& as the candle burns out, the cream is smashed across people’s faces,

I smiled to myself thinking, ‘another friend grown up (in legal perspective)’.’

I like this line : )

Sorrow looks back, worry looks around, and faith looks up

Until the meeting with our client yesterday, then I realized my work centre is not a place for elderly only. Its target audience is CAREGIVERS, meaning the friends or family of the needy.

On the road of caregiving, we all get tired or even guilty of wishing somebody will ‘hurry up and die’. But all this is only natural. What distinguishes my organization from the rest is we help this easily forgotten & taken-for-granted group to continue giving, continue caring.

I’m beginning to appreciate the meaning of my job much more.

ps. after MIA-ing for so long, yesterdy’s viewership was close to 100. Siao ahh :O

I declare, ‘I overwork!’

Being a workaholic at heart, I have never felt soooo stretched before. Not even JC times when I studied up to 15 hours per day. This time round, I reached my limit -mentally, physically, emotionally exhausted.

Let’s rewind to 2 weeks back.

Thurs -Ftb mtg. Stayover in sch.

Fri- Ftb camp 1. Rush back frm internship & stayover in sch.

Sat- Helped out in camp operations for an entire day, running around non-stop.

Sun- Internship event from Morning 8am till evening. Shifted an entire luaggage of fund-raising items back & fro from office.

Mon- work OT

Tues- Stayover in school. Ftb mtg.

Wed- Uni-y mtg (cancelled), used evening to work on my sponsorship stuffs. Stayover in school.

Thurs- Stayover in school. Ftb mtg.

Fri- 1st day of camp 2. I facilitated a group instead of helping OPS this time round.

Sat- Stayover in school. 2nd day of camp leaving me emotionally exhausted with the group.

Sun- 3rd day of camp when I only slept for 4 hours. My eyes were half closed so I decided to Stayover in school, instead of going back home as promised.

Mon -slept for 6 hours before I rushed to work. Kept nodding off in front of the com. Slept in the toilet for 15 minutes but still can’t keep awake in front of the com. My boss left me off work at 4.30pm.

Tues- slept early.

Today is Wednesday. Tomorrow is Cindy’s b’dy party. Friday is exchange discussion with budd. Saturday is ftb mtg + XinYi’s b’dy + Geri’s b’dy. Sunday is Jo’s b’dy celeb + outing with ftb group

I feel that I’m moving so fast and everything around me is at an incredible pace.

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The positive thing I managed to get out of this is the fact that I openly show my love to my family. Telling them I miss them. Talking to them. Appreciating their smiles and care for me so much more.

My brother dropped me a msg this evening, “SMU student got the first H1N1 in singapore. Take care of your health. Stay away from my room (just kidding)”

Hahaha. Deep down inside, I know they still love me.

ps. my mummy said I have a beggar’s life. Because….

I can sleep anywhere!

Toilets la, floors la, couch la, bed la, bus la, trains la, standing in lift also can sleep la. hahahaha.

it’s tiring

but i can make it.

im SO busy i didn’t even think about blogging. & this is quite shocking considering that I’m someone who is somewhat a ‘habitual blogger’.

i absorb & digest so much information, i’m learn so much more about myself and my facilitation style.

It’s just very exhausting for me at this point in time. Or I might get even busier in the summer days to come.

Forgive me for I might not respond to your messages immediately. I might get really bitchy sometimes. I might be snappy or lose my temper easily because of the lack of sleep.

What I can only ask from all of my dear friends is

UNDERSTANDING.

Understand that I’m under high stress to deliver results. Understand that sometimes I’m just too shagged to even talk. Understand that I don’t even have time for myself, what’s more my family or friends.

This summer,  I need time to think through and re-evaluate my mission in smu and my objective in life. That’s why I really need those precious little times I have by myself. If I can sleep 8 hours of sleep any time soon, that is a ‘holiday’ to me. I think I’m a workaholic at heart and I’m sure I won’t over-exert myself. So don’t worry about me (:

love, sinyi

the thing i learnt from work & should be applied in sch projects

Don’t make your problems my

problems.

I’m not your slave -not the one to take all the shit from you. Not the one to be so kind & make so much allowance & lowers my self-expectations because of you. Not your rubbish bin – for you to chuck your problems in.

This is MY life. Not yours.