Lost and Found.
“When you love someone you let them take care of you.”
— Jodi Picoult
I relish and savour every moment I had when I spent my late afternoon today reading a storybook -Lost & Found. It was a simple luxury and longing I couldn’t fulfilled until today. Albeit the spasms of cramps I had, it was a much needed escapade from the reality. The book is really interesting -it’s about different perspectives from participants in a reality tv show (something like The Amazing Race). When a couple is the last to arrive at a destination, the host will ask them this question “You have lost the game, but what have you found?”
It was a question I questioned myself for this summer. I have lost time, lost intimacy I used to share with some friends, lost the moments to mentor my brother to excel for his important examination this year, lost my freedom to do whatever I like, lost my sleep, lost my time with my family. What have I found?
Strength? Endurance? A changed Sin Yi? I have no answer for this at the moment, but this summer is really… strongly bittersweet. The bitterness I have felt, bottled up with the occasional sweetness I gathered was certainly something I have never experienced in my life before. I just hope that the rest of it would be well spent and ultimately, I lived it without regrets.
I believe (or rather, choose to believe) I am an independant soul ;)
But there are certainly times when I have to rely on someone else. One such time was when there is this dead lizard smashed at my room’s door hinge and I just can’t garner up the courage to remove it. In the end, after teh-ing to my mum, she helped me to remove its gruesome corpse. The quote “when you love someone you let them take care of you” reminded me of this incident and I was honestly secretly grateful that I have a mummy who love me so much (& I love her too) that she will do anything for me. By that, I really mean anything. I think a mother’s love is the most noble love in this world. But then, I also realized I haven’t let any of my friends took care of me for a long while. Interesting discovery (:
‘ your minds in disturbia/ it’s like the darkness is the light
