in one day.
that is more time than I spent sleeping.
Got to go through this when I’m somebody who can be productive for 3 hours max.
I’m prepared to try even harder now -even though I’m damn freaking shagged.
Status
I believed an attitude change is really important. I must say I’ve learnt a lot from my comms and promo mgmt class.
In comms class,
Girl: Maybe it’s because people see her as a female, hence not strong leader.
Hot comms prof: This is ridiculous. Don’t make it into a gender issue -bcos it isn’t.
Girl: I’m just saying it’s a possibility. It’s not easy to handle that situation, especially when others are not really supportive of her as compared to having a man to take control in this case.
Prof: If you’re blaming this failure on her gender, then I would say it is never going to work. You can’t go into business with such a paradigm.
I find myself nodding vigorously at his comments in class. He changed my belief. I’m not going to tell anyone about the difference between a man/woman and how I belong to the former anymore. People shouldn’t judge or have preconceived perceptions of what a male/female leadership should be like. If I have to stand up for myself, I would say ‘No, this is not because of my sex. This is just me.’ :) & Prof is hilarious. I was just talking to myself, ‘Is this the same person?’ and he thought I said, ‘Is she lesbian?’ *laughs*
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Although many commented how dreadfully boring my PM Prof is, I feel motivated to listen to him and I think he has nice eyes. :P Today’s consultation with him makes me realized just how knowledgeable he is. He shared with me how knowledge is build upon knowledge, how research must go hand in hand with teaching to bring more up-to-date information and value to the class. & I’m pleasantly surprised that he actually has a funny side to him! I was asking him why does he have 2 laptops with him? He said, “one for each hand!” hahaha.
If only my gpa could skyrocket all the way till I graduate, I might consider being a prof as my retirement plan. I love the dynamics in this environment.
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Tyra banks is really one woman I look up to in so many ways. Through this season of ANTM, I think I get the main message which is, people are going to focus on your weakness. That is the reality. It is up to you to have the confidence to take their focus out of your weakness and be drawn to something more captivating. Classy.
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One last thing which really changes me a lot over this summer is my crisis management skills. Because of FTB, I’m faced with life & death decisions to make, faced with people with dislocated arm, asthmatic attacks and possible h1n1 carriers. I learnt to force myself to remain calm, to think rationally and to encourage people when they’re going through their hard or painful times. This makes me realized if I were to be thrown into another emergency situation again, I will not panick like a gan chiong spider like I used to. I can deal with it already. It’s encouraging to know that although my academic skills might have sucked for the past sem, I acquired life skills.
“I just want you to be yourself. Be a bigger yourself.” -Tyra
Archive for October, 2009
the cold
the rain and lightning flashes are making me really nua. I just want to hide under my covers and snooze away.
been craving for century egg porridge for the entire of last week.
you know i could use somebody
self amused.
today, my mood was lifted by a comment I made when my friend who named her iphone ‘baby’ was inserted to another friend’s com.
I was ‘omg, u name all your belongings. that is so weird! like hey.. your baby is vibrating’ HAHAHA! i think i cheer myself up best. lolls.
& i met tina who is so excited abt us taking creative comms together. hahah
then it was a surprise celebration for our dear head ta, edwin (: it was really enjoyable to catch up with them and have our usual conversation packed with sexual innuendo. (thr is joshua, leandra and me. what do u expect? Hur hur). We were making orgasmic sounds for the awesome pizzas we had.
i got so excited on the train bcos of smtg edwin & leandra were saying. imagine the scene with lots of shuffling into a fully packed train.
leandra: hey, are u in?
edwin: yes, im in. *grins
l: ok, try to stay in.
hahaha. it’s unbelievable how i feel so comfortable with them and let out loud bursts of laughter over dinner with silly grins after the meet up.
to the ones who brighten up my world,
Cute :)
i rawr my friends, the ones that will genuinely put a smile to my face when im too caught up with work, the ones that will try to make me laugh to relieve those stress, the ones that will help me out even when they are freaking busy themselves. <3 <3 <3
sometimes i wake up wondering if today is the same as yesterday. class, project meetings, chiong reports & presentations, STRESS. what’s missing is the RAWR for life. if I’ve identified the problem, so what’s the solution (one is enough)?
listening to lee kuan yew’s favorite song - 愛拼才會贏
his hand actions are amusing. *sniggers
an apple a day keeps the doctor away
a reflection a day keeps your mind awake
I am happy I pulled through today. I thought of storming away, just stoned and fumed since my head was throbbing so badly because of the lack of sleep and constant staring at the com screen to generate the reports.
But I didn’t.
I hope this is a tiny bitsy step towards emotional maturity.
Be mature enough to look at the situation objectively and decide what is the best course of action.
I am NOT going to hide myself. I am still Sin Yi -the open book, the one you can tell straight away when I’m overjoyed; excited; unhappy; stressed; pissed off.
the world on my shoulders
im super stress. i feel like i am responsible for every fucking thing.
is it MY CHARACTER?
if there is screw ups, it’s my fault. if the project is not progressing, it’s because i spent 5 mins in proj meeting daydreaming.
if anything is cui, it’s me. me. me.
MY BAD.
i feel like puking. can i puke all my stress out? is it possible?
KNS, i don’t want consolations. I WANT RESULTS.
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dec assignment
I’m helping my dad to set up a website for his company this dec :)
I want to do something meaningful, for my family finally.
(insert vulgarity)
I would really like to show my fluency in this area (somehow everyone is fluent when the time comes) but I’m using ALL the self control I can garner to stem the flow of it circulating within my mind.
I wonder, is my communication so chui until they don’t understand the clear expectations and instructions I lay out neatly?
Or is her brain pea-sized to process and DO things?
My friend and I are having conflicts how to handle them. I’m sorry I will stick to being open. If I’m pissed off with you, I’m giving you the respect that you should know.
hahah
berton is damn funny.
I was saying only listening to david cook or nickelback will give me orgasms. He replied, ‘listening to nickelback makes me feel like punching the wall‘. HAHAHA
His songs are awesome, really fire me up. *sounds wrong. haha!*
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