i support you. take care.
that’s all i need to hear for the tears to flow.
Status
I believed an attitude change is really important. I must say I’ve learnt a lot from my comms and promo mgmt class.
In comms class,
Girl: Maybe it’s because people see her as a female, hence not strong leader.
Hot comms prof: This is ridiculous. Don’t make it into a gender issue -bcos it isn’t.
Girl: I’m just saying it’s a possibility. It’s not easy to handle that situation, especially when others are not really supportive of her as compared to having a man to take control in this case.
Prof: If you’re blaming this failure on her gender, then I would say it is never going to work. You can’t go into business with such a paradigm.
I find myself nodding vigorously at his comments in class. He changed my belief. I’m not going to tell anyone about the difference between a man/woman and how I belong to the former anymore. People shouldn’t judge or have preconceived perceptions of what a male/female leadership should be like. If I have to stand up for myself, I would say ‘No, this is not because of my sex. This is just me.’ :) & Prof is hilarious. I was just talking to myself, ‘Is this the same person?’ and he thought I said, ‘Is she lesbian?’ *laughs*
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Although many commented how dreadfully boring my PM Prof is, I feel motivated to listen to him and I think he has nice eyes. :P Today’s consultation with him makes me realized just how knowledgeable he is. He shared with me how knowledge is build upon knowledge, how research must go hand in hand with teaching to bring more up-to-date information and value to the class. & I’m pleasantly surprised that he actually has a funny side to him! I was asking him why does he have 2 laptops with him? He said, “one for each hand!” hahaha.
If only my gpa could skyrocket all the way till I graduate, I might consider being a prof as my retirement plan. I love the dynamics in this environment.
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Tyra banks is really one woman I look up to in so many ways. Through this season of ANTM, I think I get the main message which is, people are going to focus on your weakness. That is the reality. It is up to you to have the confidence to take their focus out of your weakness and be drawn to something more captivating. Classy.
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One last thing which really changes me a lot over this summer is my crisis management skills. Because of FTB, I’m faced with life & death decisions to make, faced with people with dislocated arm, asthmatic attacks and possible h1n1 carriers. I learnt to force myself to remain calm, to think rationally and to encourage people when they’re going through their hard or painful times. This makes me realized if I were to be thrown into another emergency situation again, I will not panick like a gan chiong spider like I used to. I can deal with it already. It’s encouraging to know that although my academic skills might have sucked for the past sem, I acquired life skills.
“I just want you to be yourself. Be a bigger yourself.” -Tyra
an extension from the previous post
I’m quite surprised I don’t need my alarm clock to wake me up this morning when I slept at 5 am to clear shit.
I woke up automatically 15 minutes before I hear the blasting siren from my alarm and reached for my phone. Little did I know I’m in for 2 rude shocks of my life and I couldn’t get back to sleep since then.
So here I am, fully awake and operating like a machine.
Can I not have events as my strength? -.-
I get the shock of my life when shihui sent me this.
http://www.tackfilm.se/en/?id=1259770819359RA12
anyways, I’m so tired. I don’t know what else to say. I’m so tired and my sweet friends are already helping me as much as possible.
It’s super ironic why my life is made up of time and I cannot find time for myself. It’s almost equating to having no life.
Someone much older and whom I respect told me today ” Remember how much you pushed yourself for the event last time?”
I replied, “Yeaa. and I can’t seem to push myself to that limit for my studies.My studies is killing me.”
She replied, ” It’s not because you cannot push yourself. It’s simply not your strength. Give you something visual, and you will fly.”
I really needed that. To know I can fall back on my natural strength (to even realized I have one).
cool eh.
i told my mum i want to be a single mum 1st. my cramps are killing me.
and alex’s facebook status of ‘Sinyi met the nicest guy in her life… FINALLY….’ is receiving a lot of attention. *super amused*
my cramps are here at a friggging bad period. this is the xiongest and busiest time and i have to deal with this internal battle.
im getting easily exhausted in a very short time and i feel terrible for saying this, but im really not able to hold up this ’strong’ image of their leader for long if my cramps don’t end soon.
im really……. tired. really. tired.
of misses & good friends
i know i reply smses damn slowly. that’s because 1. my phone sucks (i can’t sms while walking) 2. i suck (i’m damn distracted by whatever is going around me)
but im super happy to see that 1. gf MISSES ME (in caps somemore! ^^) 2. thomas miss me! (awww. he is the 1st guy that can make me laughed until I have to hold onto the wall for support) 3. slut miss me! (always so caring) 4. everyone else misses me! (just that you don’t say. hahahaha)
I’m damn shagged. hell is not over for me. I’m getting really tired these days and like my lovely ltmies say “you look like you just gave birth”. SADLY, I DO. zzz
pain pain go away
FINALLY, my mens is here after 2 weeks of womb pain which I was complaining to my friends around me. Hahaha
This morning, I woke up with this line from last night’s movie stuck in my head
“我要变得更强大，来保护你们每一个人。你们也要变得更强大，来保护身边的每一个人。”
This was what Mulan told her troop when she got back onto her feet after mourning for her lost soldiers and love. So sweet, I also want to be like her :]
花木兰
Knowing that I’m a feminist at heart, movies like Mu lan will definitely be one of my extremely LOVED character and show. Since I’ve been catching her in cartoon form in the disney show when I was 10, I never stop admiring this woman.
So, when I was to watch this new movie of hua mu lan which just recently released with tina & cass, I haboured high expectations of the plot and character. AND it did not fail me (:
I like these 3 lines in particular.
逃避，停止不了战争。害怕，只能让我们失去更多！
军队可以遗弃我，将军可以背叛我，但我花木兰，决不背叛国家！
在战场上，决不能有感情。
It really shows the sacrifice she selflessly made for her country and her brothers. On top of this, a noble love story ties everything up on with a bittersweet tone. I freaking love it!
I like her way of putting people before her. Always being on the front line with her army to fight dangerously with them. Her well-planned strategies and her insurmountable amount of courage.
Perhaps something I can learn and apply from this is to treat fear as a person and shout at it ‘我不怕你!’。There is nothing to be scared of, when someone else will always be looking after you (:
i have a WEIRDZ dream
i dreamt that i was back in my mum’s village in melaka, taking care of my body because I WAS ABOUT TO DELIVER MY BABY.
the worrying thing is I still have my mens. so that means that something is wrong with my womb or the baby. in any case, it’s nerve wrecking to have people constantly worrying about the baby and following you around (even to the restroom).
women are so hard to be.
gimme a break
even when exams end, my holidays is going to be freaking packed.
dec 2nd wk: event execution
dec 3rd wk: going taiwan with family for 1 wk
dec 4th wk: going penang to attend my cousin’s wedding
I really hope it’s packed of fun and I can have my in-between hiatus. I desperately need a good read. Been craving for a trip to borders since 2 months ago.
and here’s a cute guy.
and a cute girl.
love the cool winds howling around my home. and I’m hooked on to reading detective manga -Detective Conan.
ps. I want to plop into my bed, eating tidbits all day long and watch lots of movies, kdramas and hk dramas. I will be VERY HAPPY that way.
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